Back from Boston

Ok so I know I have not posted in a long time so I will fill you in on the most resent details. Got through the first year of Ad/Brandcenter woo hooo. It was crazy cool and mostly difficult. I got a great opportunity for and internship at Mordernista (M!) in Boston, MA. Modernista is great, and I learned all kinds of cool things and met a bunch of very interesting and talented people. And thankfully the whole experience has brought a few things to light for me and I have a much better understanding for who I want to be and how I need to get there. Now M! is fantastic but I was forced to leave my internship early. My wife was diagnosed with appendicitis . She had to go into emergency surgery at 4am on Friday. So I hopped the first possible flight I could back to Richmond (which was not till 5 am, damn gas prices and fewer flights) She is doing well very sore and she now has three battle scares on her tummy. The whole incident was very nerve recking for many reasons but the most I think was the fact that I was torn between what to do, and I was worried what the people in the ad world would think of my decission to be with my wife and not finish out my entire internship. We are taught in school and in our internships that advertising is well just advertising, but do to the amount of work we are required to put in it is very easy to let it become much more than that. When I found out about Meg's condition I was first and for most worried about her and needed to get back to her asap, but I was also very concerned with what the people at M! would think about me leaving. After we realized that Meg was going to be ok but that I would need to be in Richmond to stay with her during her recovery time it became 10000% evident how trivial advertising really is. I had a small epiphany , it does not matter what they think it matters what I think. It matters what you personally hold to be the highest thing in your life. This is not to say I wanted to be an A-hole it is more an understanding of what you believe in and being able to stand up for that and feel comfortable in your decision to do that. No matter how much we want a Gold Lion, the approval of our CD or a Pencil all it really is, is a job. We can not loose sight of what the job is really for. It is not for the Pencil it is not for the self glorification, it is not for the approval of your peers or your boss. What it is really for is to better yourself (personally not financially ) and your family. If you loose sight of this no amount of Pencils in the world will make up for it. You have to be true to yourself about all of your feelings and all of your wants and needs no matter what part of your life they come in. If you can do this you can truly figure out who you are and what your voice will be, and in that you will be better at your job. Now I am still definitely working on this as I think it really is a new thought process for me, but just in the past two weeks of having the thought that this is the way life should be I feel better about me, my life, my attitude, my job, and just about everything.


I want to find out who I really am, what my opinions really are and have the power to hold true to them and believe in myself. I know this which I think was a big step to be able to admit to myself and truly believe it that I need help in figuring this out, now I just need to get the help to work on it. I know I will figure it out and I know I will be a better person in every aspect of my life because of it.